profile re-post

I know, most people use their profiles to post conversations and things that they want to share with the world… but I change my profile often enough that I like re-posting them here so that I can keep them for later.

Erin: does it ever end???!!!
Me:according to “If You Could Hie to Kolob” there are many things which have no end
Erin: “There is no end to homework
There is no end to tests.
there is no end to finals
there is no end to class
there is no end to papers
there is no end to school
there is no end to study
there is no graduation
Thanks Erin for letting me post this!

I’m sooooo glad that finals are over… aren’t you?

YAs owns my soul

Wow, it’s kinda been awhile hasn’t it? Guess things have just been busy. Sad thing is, even though it’s been busy and I haven’t updated in a while… there’s not much to tell. Lots of classes, and homework and YAs. And in my spare time… more classes, more homework and even more YAs. It’s raining today, so that’s been happy. I love the rain. Young Ambassadors is starting to encroach more and more on my time. Ali and I were looking at my calendar for the rest of the semester and suddenly it’s all YAs or gone. We’re a week and a half from tech week so rehearsals are now a lot of work. Instead of showing up for fifteen minutes and leaving we’re coming in at 2pm for the next two weeks and staying until six. Then a week from Saturday we’re basically there from 8am-5pm running a full rehearsal of the show in the KMB. Then we go into tech week. I’ll be at Spanish Fork High School from the end of classes each day until around 11pm. The following Tuesday will probably be another extended rehearsal as we try to recover from tech week and prepare ourselves to go on tour that Thursday. I’ll be in Idaho through that Sunday morning. Another week goes by fairly uneventful.. but then it’s Thanksgiving and all that entails. Come back from Thanksgiving and I’ll have two weeks till finals. So, basically, Young Ambassadors owns my soul.

I guess that’s all I really have to say right now. Randy asked all of the YAs to read the whole Book of Mormon before November 30th, so I’ve been spending a lot of time reading that. It’s actually been one of the best things I think I’ve ever done. I sooo look forward to the time I have every day to read the Book of Mormon, it’s like my favorite part of everyday. I’m getting soo much out of it and I just feel so much more at peace with myself. It’s been great. Ali and I are getting along well. I still don’t have a roommate (rock!!). I’m finally catching up on my missionary writing. I’m looking at getting a job up here because I probably won’t go home at Christmas time *my family doesn’t love me… ok ok so really they’re just planning on coming up here for Christmas instead* and I won’t survive financially next semester without a job. I’m totally doing well in my classes (which has been super happy). So yeah, once again I guess that’s me in a nutshell (dang I wish I had more to say because computer programming today is just a review of what I did on Monday so I’m kinda bored…)

perspective

In Relief Society today we had a lesson on hymns. Someone started talking about an experience she had on her mission and I was… humbled. She told us about a really bad day that she was having when the hymn “Count Your Many Blessings” came into her mind. As she recited the lyrics (which, granted I’ve heard a million times before) it really hit home to me.

When upon life’s billows you are tempest tossed
When you are discouraged thinking all is lost
Count your many blessings name them one by one
And it will surprise you what the Lord has done

Lately I have been discouraged and definitely have felt like all is lost. But I’ve decided to try and count my many blessings (because let’s face it, the gospel is true, temples are beautiful… it’s all just a matter of perspective) instead of focusing on things I can’t control. Does it mean things will be any easier? Nope. Does it mean that all the pain will disappear? Not really. Does it mean that every morning I will wake up and my life will be going perfectly? No. But it does mean that I can see the sunlight through the clouds and be happy despite them.

Later in sacrament meeting it was pounded into my head again as we sang that song for the closing hymn. Although… I nearly passed out towards the end of the last verse because I hadn’t eaten anything yet today. I hope that’s not a sign…

Anyways, that’s what I learned today and I just wanted to share.

Orange Juice

Well, there’s so much to tell, but I kinda just want to get to sleep rather than have a full update. I think I’ll write about YA Retreat and Fall Fest tomorrow or later sometime. Just know that YA Retreat was absolutely incredible, better than I had remembered it. Fall Fest was amazing. So much better than last year when I ended up going home early.

I feel so much better about life right now. I’m ready to take on whatever comes my way. Of course, it generally seems like that’s an invitation for more trials. Things aren’t perfect, but I at least feel better now than I have in a while.

Ok, random thought (and the real reason I decided to post. Everything else would get up sooner or later, but this had occurred to me and I wanted to post it before I forgot.) Yaknow what I have really come to like as of late? Orange Juice. I know that’s a really dumb thing to really like, and something that’s so common that it’s like “wow, Brittny, you are a special girl.” But there’s more to it than meets the eye. For… as long as I can remember, I really didn’t like Orange Juice all that much. I’m not very picky when it comes to foods but orange juice had just never really tickled my fancy and I would avoid drinking it whenever possible. For some reason, over the last several months that has turned around. It’s almost something that I’ll crave now. How weird is that? Anyways, no real point in telling everyone that, just thought I’d let you know how much I like Orange Juice all of a sudden.

Sorry, random mood. Had to post that. I think I’ll go to bed before it gets even more random. Good Night! 🙂

Thirteen

Wow, do you ever feel like you were just a little kid a second ago… and then all of a sudden you’re here, and now? I don’t feel like I ever really grew up. I think that I’m still that same little girl that I’ve always been, and I don’t think that will ever change. I still skip across the street at midnight in my socks. I still love watching storms coming knowing that I can go dance in the rain. I still dream of being a princess. Does that ever go away? I don’t think so. Just the innocence of being young… we hide it away but it’s never really gone. I know as I got older I found ways to hide it and pretend that I was older and more mature than all of that… but it’s just as much make believe now as it was when I was a little girl.

Anyways, I just watched a great movie tonight that totally took me back to being thirteen… probably more like eight actually- but in the movie the girl was 13. The movie is called Thirteen Going On Thirty. I think Amy summarized the movie and my feelings afterwards the best… she quoted someone else but I don’t know who. She said, “We don’t ever really grow up, we just learn how to act in public.”

On a completely opposite note, I think I’m growing. Isn’t that happy! 🙂 (wow, i really am still a little girl) I don’t know how much or anything or even if it’s anything significant. But I was standing next to Amy tonight, and she seemed less eye-level than she’s always been. Totally weird. I am fully wishing that I had a tape measurer so I could see if I’ve broken 5’2″ yet. *crosses fingers*

Well, tonight I’m not in public, and I’m not acting. This little princess is going to lie down in her bed and dream of a castle far away with a Prince Charming (but if he happens to be an ogre that she loves, that might be even better.)