Thirteen

Wow, do you ever feel like you were just a little kid a second ago… and then all of a sudden you’re here, and now? I don’t feel like I ever really grew up. I think that I’m still that same little girl that I’ve always been, and I don’t think that will ever change. I still skip across the street at midnight in my socks. I still love watching storms coming knowing that I can go dance in the rain. I still dream of being a princess. Does that ever go away? I don’t think so. Just the innocence of being young… we hide it away but it’s never really gone. I know as I got older I found ways to hide it and pretend that I was older and more mature than all of that… but it’s just as much make believe now as it was when I was a little girl.

Anyways, I just watched a great movie tonight that totally took me back to being thirteen… probably more like eight actually- but in the movie the girl was 13. The movie is called Thirteen Going On Thirty. I think Amy summarized the movie and my feelings afterwards the best… she quoted someone else but I don’t know who. She said, “We don’t ever really grow up, we just learn how to act in public.”

On a completely opposite note, I think I’m growing. Isn’t that happy! 🙂 (wow, i really am still a little girl) I don’t know how much or anything or even if it’s anything significant. But I was standing next to Amy tonight, and she seemed less eye-level than she’s always been. Totally weird. I am fully wishing that I had a tape measurer so I could see if I’ve broken 5’2″ yet. *crosses fingers*

Well, tonight I’m not in public, and I’m not acting. This little princess is going to lie down in her bed and dream of a castle far away with a Prince Charming (but if he happens to be an ogre that she loves, that might be even better.)

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