Well, if you were to tell me 24 hours ago that I would be in the position I am right now… I wouldn’t have believed you. Not even a little bit. But I think the rollercoaster ride is stopping for awhile. I’ve finally come to a place where I really and truly feel good about what I’m going to do from here.
This morning my mom and I started talking about going back to BYU and the money and all of the general craziness that I would be going through up there this semester. She brought up again the option that I could stay home this semester and take classes at Moorpark College and work at Mervyns. It didn’t really sound like the solution I wanted, but when we finished talking I figured I should at least give it a chance. So I came up to my room and looked things over and it was like everything just dropped into place. Money wasn’t an issue, roommates weren’t an issue, I could get everything caught up… It was like putting the edges together in a puzzle, from there, everything else works itself out.
So, new plan. I’m going to stick around Thousand Oaks this semester, take a few classes at Moorpark College, work at Mervyns and just generally get my life back on track. I’m still not completely sure that I LIKE the idea, but it feels good. There’s more research yet to be done, but it looks like it will work out and make things better overall. Definitely not what I would have expected to be doing this semester, but I think it’s going to work out quite nicely.